just a letter

Dear princess,

Even until now i still can’t believe what i have done to you for all those months. Yeah, you may be bored of my excuses and my ignorance to you, and i’m sure you’re thinking i’m just a liar. While i always said that i did that for our own good (sic), what really happened is this.

I lied to you
I hurt your feelings
I betray your love
I ruined our friendship
and I’m the selfish one.

some time not long ago, we decided that we must finish it. we put all those things in the past, right? we hope that we will forget about it and return to our normal life. then suddenly after that, somehow you really changed. a lot. you can wipe the sadness in my face and brighten my day. i don’t know, i can’t explain it, but i can say these.

i’m really happy to be with you now
and i’m really happy that you still care for me
that little thing you do, your sweetest gift
this is maybe as close as we can get,
but this is surely as good as it gets :)

love,
ramdaffe

G.M.R

am i wishing upon the wrong star?

Fate is kind
She brings to those who love
The sweet fulfillment of
Their secret longing

 

Like a bolt out of the blue
Fate steps in and sees you through
When you wish upon a star
Your dreams come true

Dear star,

if you wreck my life, i’m okay with it, i can get up on my feet no matter what
if you ruin my happiness, i don’t care, sadness is hanging on my head most of the time
if you wipe out the smile on my face, at least someone will cheer me up again

but why,
why do you take away my dreams?
it’s only a dream of mine , it’s worthless to you
but for me, when my all hope is lost
that’s the only thing that i can hold on to

don’t leave me
i still need that faint light of yours….

*this post was written after ramdaffe got the notification letter announcing that he is accepted to informatics engineering on ITB. that wasn’t enough to bring back his smile. feeling sad? no, just having an unbelievably lonely heart…

spotless mind

Change your heart
Look around you
Change your heart
It will astound you
I need your lovin’
Like the sunshine

Everybody’s gotta learn sometime
Everybody’s gotta learn sometime
Everybody’s gotta learn sometime

Beck – Everybody’s Gotta Learn Sometime

for some reason i really like this song (or maybe that’s because i love the movie? you bet i really do :D )

aftermath

setelah 3 hari dan 2 malam mengerjakan tugas kaderisasi ini, mari kita lihat keadaan si jerapah…

1. semalem tidur sangat nyenyak sampe2 pas bangun udah ada 4 misscall, 7 SMS, dan 3 alarm yang masi bunyi (informasi: sang jerapah baru bangun jam 10), rencana siang ini: tidur.

2. kamarnya mencapai level berantakan yang terakhir kali dicapai saat TA LFM, bedanya kali ini gara-gara dipakai tempat nginep 6-8 orang main DoTA, ngenet, dengerin musik ngerjain tugas

3. sampah yang tersisa: 4 botol aqua, 3 ultramilk, 1 iket rambut, 3 kaleng nescafe ice, 1/2 pasang kaos kaki, dan beberapa tumpuk kertas

4. non-sampah yang tersisa: 1 laptop toshiba, 1 laptop vaio, 2 charger, 3 USB flash disk entah punya siapa, 1 tas cewe, 2 tas laptop, helm motor, kemeja pinjeman, dan beberapa tumpuk majalah

tapi, berhubung hari ini masih ada acara lagi, tetep aja ga dibersihin…..:D

*moga2 nyokap ga dateng tiba2
*i’ll have to explain that ladies bag :p

huaaah…kangen jakarta…kapan ya bisa balik…:(
kangen makanan enak…hiks…

 

*hmm….this will do :D

cloudbreak

now we’ve been telling our stories,
tear drops and pain.

i’m really sorry,
for every time i hurt your feelings,
for every time i told you how much i loved her,
for every time i disappoint you again and again,
for every time i hurt your feelings.

i’m sorry,
princess;
i can’t be the best person that you ever had….

differente?

i thought that God created us human to be different each other,
but even sometimes some of them are simply on the opposite side of the river,
while i’m drowning helplessly in the middle.

i’m talking about woman.

apakah karena wanita lebih sering memakai perasaan daripada laki-laki,
sehingga mereka lebih mudah berbeda pendapat daripada kami yang (katanya) lebih sering memakai logika?

apakah saat mereka bilang kita tidak bisa mengerti perasaan mereka, yang benar itu mereka dan kita yang salah?

ataukah semua itu hanya mitos belaka dan laki-laki dengan wanita itu sama saja?
sama-sama tak sempurna, sama-sama berbuat salah?

i don’t know the answer, but i know one thing,
we seeks happiness in our life,
with our own, different ways.